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Tuesday, November 3, 2009

I'm almost halfway sure my chocolate's paranormal.

October tried to sucker punch me. I took it like a woman, held my ground and then only sobbed when October turned it's back to go on with the busy dealings of Autumn-izing the country.
My Grandmother passed away.
Just one of those things, people were expecting it, and the time came...and then it passed and so did she. Expected or not it still sucked. But I have been reminded of a couple of important things. You gotta live your life, you can't stay in the puddles of sadness, life goes on until it stops and hopefully each person has collected up an awesome cache of memories and experiences when this physical existence ends.
I like calling it physical existence, I really believe there's more to our world than just the physical plane. That the spiritual one, or what ever you want to call it, is the next step after this life. So even though I am sad for my Grandmother passing I'm happy she's moving on to what ever awesome experience is next, no longer burdened by the frailty of a human body.
Which reminds me, I am totally gonna haunt the hell out of people when I pass. I mean, I am going to go poltergeist all over their ass, forewarned is forewarned.
A small side note about me, I've been writing my grandmother letters for years. Just little notes and silly pictures and poems and whatnot. Just things that I felt like might bring a smile if she saw them. Like a closeup of my face sticking my tongue out, or pictures of my husband dancing in the driveway, the sort of foolishness that needs no words or translating and stuff I hoped made her shake her head at the daft grand daughter.
The last one I sent her, we took it to the post office and after coming home saw that my Mom had emailed me to tell me that Grandma wasn't doing good and was going to pass soon. I wondered if my letter would make it to Canada before she did...it didn't. I had done something different with this letter, I wrote on the back that whoever should see it, if they'd please tell my Grandma that Tracey-Anne said "I love you." She was in a Nursing home for 11 years and I'm not sure if she was ever really able to look at the letters I sent by herself.
My Mom said some one gave her the letter at Grandma's funeral, she said someone suggested it be read out loud as part of the services and she laughed and said "God No!" Because I had written stuff like "Well slap my arse and call me Ethel" in it, silly little things like that. Personally I think it would have been a hoot to let the Reverend struggle through my page of nonsense writing in front of a crowd of mourners.
I didn't think much more about that letter after that.
My Mom told me the services were very nice, that a little memorial area was set up with chocolate in honor of Grandma, famous for her sweet tooth. When ever we'd go visit her we'd always bring something sweet. I am not sure I have a photo of her from the last 15 years that doesn't have a box of chocolates or Tim Hortons iced coffee or some other sweet treat in the pic as well. :)
When I was a kid I'd go visit and stay with her for a week or two and we'd eat biscuits and molasses. She said that I was a "good biscuit eater" high praise indeed. I think she liked that I truly appreciated the awesomeness of a homemade biscuit with butter and molasses. :)
So on this one night, not too long after her funeral, we go to a local health food grocery store and I spy, from my position in the check out line a small sign in one of the food aisles that says "Chocolate bars .25"
I think I was moving across the room before I even made the conscious decision to do so, cause come on, chocolate and .25, couldn't have been any more clear to me what I should do if a giant beam of golden light had crashed through the ceiling illuminating the sale with the voice of God or that guy who does the movie trailer voice overs booming
"CHEAP CHOCOLATE!"

So I grabbed a bar, and scurried back into line. The cashier glances at us as he rings it through and goes on to explain that this bar is ridiculously marked down, that's it's retail price is THREE DOLLARS a bar and that the store received a shipment by mistake and so somehow that equates to them selling them for dirt cheap.
We go out to the car, bar in hand, not lost in the bags of groceries, start heading home with hunks of dark chocolate studded with crispy crunchy real cacao nibs through it in our mouths and realize. "Holy crap this is freaking good!" Like I can't believe I walked away with only one bar good. We do some hasty math in the dim interior of the car, add up the savings and figure out that, on sale like this, it's half the price of the bulk dark chocolate we get there.
We did what any normal person would do, circled the block and tried not to run down any pedestrians as we rushed back into the store, hearts thudding because maybe some other lucky smhuck figured out before we did that sales like that don't happen very often.
Success, I won't leave you hanging. We had success, 15 bars of chocolate left! We paid a total of 4.00 for 48.00 worth of chocolate! And once more the cashier, a different one this time, commented on how good a deal this was, how the store got the chocolate by accident and they were just selling it off at 1/12th the price.
Yay for cheap thrills in any form!
When we got home, mouth still savoring marked down chocolate, I checked the mailbox and there was a card inside. We headed up to the house, unloaded groceries onto the kitchen counter as I puzzled over it. Addressed to me from a Reverend in Nova Scotia. I suspected some sort of sympathy card about my Grandmother's recent passing but I didn't expect the envelope for the last letter I'd sent her to come falling out when I opened it up.
See what I mean?
October tried to sucker punch me.
I set the papers down and turned away for a much needed hug from my husband, already sniffling, I decided to just put the card and envelope away until a less emotional time and do something a little less mentally taxing like putting milk in the fridge.
Then...there was a moment.
Not a chorus of angels, light blasting, voices from beyond the grave sort of moment BUT a moment none the less. The card and envelope I'd unknowingly set upon our awesome and unexpected chocolate boon. It suddenly seemed funny, like snort and snicker so hard it blew away the grey fog of grief sort of funny. What were the odds? Getting all that chocolate and then the envelope I'd sent my Grandmother... It felt like she was saying hi.....she got the message...maybe. It felt good.
I don't know for sure if the other side can arrange mega awesome chocolate sales, I don't know if such things as the timing of checking the mail and shopping can be synchronized....but I do know that chocolate tasted ever so much sweeter with a hint of paranormal about it. Just the possibility made me smile and my heart lighter, mind clearer.
And whether she arranged it or not I do know for damn sure Grandma Prest would appreciate my treasure trove of 48.00 worth of fancy chocolate for the low low price of 4.00, almost as much as she'd appreciate the chocolate yumminess itself.


We watch our fair share of paranormal shows, Ghost Hunters and reality shows with psychics and mediums. A common thread that seems to run through is that if there is an "other side" that communication might not always be a direct, clear, scientifically proven event. That usually the communication is very personal and specific to the deceased and person getting it. That it's something meaningful to the recipient, like an amazing deal on chocolate and my Grandmother's envelope I sent making it's way back to me via a third party who I don't even know. :)
What I mean is that maybe the chocolate is only paranormal for me, and that's ok....I'm the one eating it.

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8 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

toujours moi; And it is Grandmother's way of saying, "You know and I know. I love you too, Tracey-Anne, see you around the corner."
Having experienced going there and back, I can tell you, she saw you and wanted to share as she could. Your chocolate experience was no accident. She was relating to you. It so boost my faith even more when I hear of things like this happening in real life. People accepting as you say "the other side". So much greater than a tv story.
She is around the corner and so whole and happy. Keep talking to her, she loves your knowing and accepting. It is not much different than before she went, she was a long way away and she is still a long way away but so close in your heart, and you in hers.

November 5, 2009 2:09 PM  
Blogger Tace said...

Hi Anonymous aka Mary, Thank-you for commenting! I really appreciate it :)
I like your words about Grandma being a long way a way but close in my heart. :) That's a really beautiful way of thinking of it!
smiles from me :)

November 5, 2009 4:54 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

My Dear,
I am of older age, and experience, and I want to say the human mind has a way of dealing with ANYTHING by reaching back unaware into it's OWN memories and creating alternate responses, which are generally interpreted as "outside influence". Where is Nessie? Where is Sasquatch? UFO's? Forget it. All in the mind. As real as Goldilocks. The physical world is transient anyways.

The dream you describe that your husband had has nothing to do with you... it's all in HIS head.
When we dream of other people and their reactions, those other people are US, OURSELVES. Your husband is confronting HIS Duality, NOT YOURS. So don't worry, the World is beyond you, and will go on as it always has.. with vegans and carnivores, peacekeepers and murderers, blood and chocolate.
Your Grandmother lived her life and is gone now. Coincidence becomes confused with "messages". When we send flowers at funerals, it is for US, the living, to feel better, not the dead, who are beyond the senses of this world, sub-atomic.

November 6, 2009 12:20 AM  
Blogger Tace said...

Hi Anonymous, Thank-you for taking the time to write, I appreciate your visit to my blog and your comments. I am not sure what dream you are referring to that my husband had, I don't think I mentioned any dreams in this post about my paranormal chocolate. :) I am curious though, if you tell me which blog post I wrote that refers to my husband's dream I'd love to go back and reread :) and refresh my memory.
Your thoughts are interesting, I don't think I agree with them though. I am happier believing there IS more after death. I am happier believing there are spirits who might even try contacting, even if it's all a pretty make believe story in my head... :) It's a nicer story to live, for me. Also I have had a few odd experiences and dreams that feel more than just coincidences, and I've heard stories from relatives that have had experiences they can't explain, I respect their belief in ghosts just like I respect yours that there aren't ghosts. And that's the cool thing about our planet, no one knows for sure....

November 6, 2009 12:39 AM  
Blogger alan truly said...

Do you ever notice how skeptics never use terms like "I think" or "I believe" or "in my opinion"? They pretend to be the voices of authority, regular know-it-alls.

No offense meant, "older, and more experienced" commenter, but I know there are plenty of older, more experienced people that believe in an afterlife, so I question your authority on this issue.

Why is it easier for skeptics to believe in nothing than to trust thousands of years worth of written accounts of the afterlife? I certainly hope that mankind is not as deranged or devious as skeptics must assume.

I believe in mankind and I believe in an afterlife. It gives me comfort, but costs me nothing. And if it turns out I am wrong, I am still better off having believed during life.

November 6, 2009 2:30 AM  
Blogger Tace said...

Hi Alan, thank-you for stopping by my blog and commenting! I enjoy all my commenters and love hearing what they have to say. :)
The funny thing about skeptics and believers, two groups of humans looking at the same subject from different perspectives is that one of them is right and one of them is wrong..or they're all wrong..oohhh or in a very Twilight-esque type situation we're ALL right. I read this thing one time about how we create our own reality and as such we also create our own afterlife. The book suggested that if you think there's something more your spirit will experience something more but if you don't then you won't. I'm all for having more myself!

November 6, 2009 3:04 AM  
Anonymous ginny said...

I know this is belated, but I just read this post and through my tears of sympathy and my howls of laughter I remembered when my dad died. My next oldest brother and I were very close to my dad. We adored him. He adored us and ice cream, maybe not even in that order. A day without ice cream for my dad was unacceptable. At dad's funeral, the part by the grave, the minister was saying all the right words. The grave was situated on a hill overlooking the valley. My brother had his arm around me and we both were crying, when the sound of a Good Humor Ice Cream truck below us came up with the breeze. It was that familiar little music that announced the truck to the neighborhood. My brother whispered in my ear that it was alright. Dad was near. They were playing dad's song.

November 22, 2009 5:24 PM  
Blogger Tace said...

Hi Ginny, thank-you for commenting and sharing your story. It was Alan and I with tears in our eyes when we read it. But they were the bittersweet kind of tears because it sucks major azz that death is the inevitable conclusion to life as we know it, but sweet because there are so many common stories of what might come next. That there even is a next. I really appreciate hearing yours, I bet it WAS a sign from your Dad, hearing the ice cream truck music.
We've been having a tough week here, one of our cats died. It was a shock and has been really hard. I've mentioned a few times on my blog, we don't have kids we have cats. BUt just like with people I believe they have souls and we are happy to imagine our sweet feline girl moving on to what ever's next, hopefully haunting us. ;) Your comment came at a perfect moment. Thanks!!!

November 22, 2009 7:55 PM  

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